i just love weekends.
was really tired.
woke up at 7.30am.
to realise that my reporting time is 7.30am.
lol.
dint see dad ard. so called him.
praise God that he's still behind my house eating.
of coz, got a ride from him to expo.

go in hall, like everybody briefing.
go scan attendance.. then try to look for my team.
or at least familiar faces.
hahas. walked past Rachel.
she wants me to be her runner again.
wah. today was hiong ar.
run here run here.
close terance, open terance. lay chairs, get bulletins.
learnt alot from her. hahas. like how to see the traffic.
i tried to think like her. coz she wont tell me what she doing de.
lol.

dint serve for special ministry.
stayed with CG.
special ministry was totally amazing.
today more people manifested.
more screams.
it great. our spring cleaning.
and we're all clean up. :D
today was abit different from ytd.
after most people were delievered.. wah.
greater ministry.
Pst Mike rushed for a plane, Pst Derek took over.
wah. flow of HS. joy and peace and fall under the power of His.
i just love Him.

ended svc and we went for fellowship at bedok.
saw many people.
hahas. again, Cindy shared what happened to her.
the left and the right.
it's better than ytd.
went back tog.
they were talking abt the street fighter show.
i was like -.-" sorry, i'm not your generation.
wah. i shld now have shorter time frame for my aim.
yes, alot more shorter. means more work.
but i'm ready to go for it. chiong ar!

wanted to watch high school musical de.
but i cannot take it liao.
super tired.
sleep until 9pm. how to sleep later? hahas.

oh yes! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D
it's my spiritual birthday!.. wah. 2 years liao.
it passes so fast. went through alot in and with this family.
from n302 to n346 and to now, combine with n338
thank God for people ard me. :) even those 'hi bye' friends in church.
thank Him for UM, thank Him for great leaders.
i still vivdly rmb how i came.
wah ju invited me.
i dint reply her sms.
and she called and scold me.
then i okay lor. just go with her the next day.
and it was Pst Mike svc.
apparently, i was sleeping in his svc. dont understand what a caucasian is talking abt
anyway, during altar call. somehow, i lifted my hands.
and i went down.
that time was in Jurong West Church.
so have to take some distance down
he led us in sinners prayer. and lay hands on us.
ya. after svc, alot people come and shake hands with me, talk to me.
lol. that time was n302 and n246 combine outreach.
they played games and stuff.
yeah. and some shared alot alot alot.. that made me wanna stay.
yup. and i stayed through out.
i still rmb the times where i've serious PO.
thank you n302.. that stand by me.
then slowly, get to know more people that were out of CG
went through some things. but still n302 was there.
indeed, i've grown though the years i believe.
and i'm still growing and going from glory to glory.
i'll never stop loving HIM!

WOW! it was amazing!
i slept at 4am ytd.
was spending time with Him.
He's so sweet. :)

today woke up at 9am myself. without alarm or what.
was feeling so afresh.
get myself prepared to meet friends.
were so excited.

today was CG outreach.
it was great!
get to know new people.
like Pamela, Angeline, Benedict, Hui Min...
all from SGS! :)
played along the lines of MRT.
we came in 2nd and was awarded last. hahas
was ju came in last and was awarded first lah.

rushed down for svc.
reached there worship abt to end.
wait for ushers to lay chairs.. then we sit down.
argh. paiseh lah.. there was alot ppl standing waiting for seats.
then Cindy was saying: you're usher, you dont wish to help meh?
lol.. paiseh leh.

sermon was great! i love Pst Mike Connell.
after svc was special ministry.
the boys exprienced and saw what happened.
ya. was great. totally great.
was being prayed for.
wah. good good.
i'm loving Him more and more. :)
many people manifested. it's great to see them being set free from the bondages.
thank God for people like Pst Mike.

we talked a little inside the hall. like everybody clearing out liao..
then we also move off.
oh no! i dont wanna miss a member.
hahas weiren wanna kop kitmeng over to his cell.
LOLS. sorry. we need him for SGS. hahas. transformers.
laughing like dont know what.
okays. he looks like PaPa no. 2. first is Jasper. then is weiren.
stand with the kids like woah.

hahas. i've made a new friend.
:) sis Patricia hahas.
not really new lah. just get to know her like from the camp, and started talking last week
hahas.
on the way to foyer 3.. she shared her exprience with me just now.
super funny.
then at foyer 3 our CG keep saying bye bye to weiren and pat.
then in the end still walk to zebra crossing.

was dreaming how my life would be like if i'm a CGL.
wah. looking upon leaders. hahas.
i want spiritual breakthrough!

tmr will be greater.. yes.
looking forward.. hahas.

i'll just let it fly for the time being.
no idea of how to control it. but just let it rest in the Kingdom
i'm trying. very hard.
to let go and let God.
i just want Him to rule and reign over me.

can somebody just explain to me?
i'm faulting all over.
ya. IF MY GOD IS FOR ME, THEN WHO SHALL BE AGAINST ME?

i wanna receive. i do want to.
joy and peace. let me exprience them
God, i pray this day.
give me my daily bread.
keep me away from the temptations.
forgive me as i forgive them
please. i need You.

as predicted. it's here.
it's always like that.
the good things and the bad things are all more than what i can expect.

i'm looking forward to tmr.
ard the city in 80 mins.
i love SGS. :) keep it up guys.
but of coz. i need to bear fruits as well.
but how? i'm a fig tree. with broken branches.
all dried up. all useless.
Kelvin prayed ytd. but i need more.
more more more.

i know it's here.
and i rejoice.
coz i know i'll go stronger.
" i'm believing in you. "
that's what i hear and that's what i need.
i hope that i wont jump into conclusions.
heavenly and Godly wisdom.
not mine. not mine.

there's all things i wanna thank God for
for this weekend, for it's Rev. Mike Connell.
means i'm having my birthday soon!
and i thank God for Clara.
some how met her on the train.
and God sent her to tell me, to get me prepared.
thank God for CG. for leaders. to support me.
really.
i need a balance life. to know what to do and not what to do.
i wont give up.
just keep me warm, keep me alive, keep me strong

sarcifices, it is.
i stand alone. righteously.
only God knows what i'm going through
i love Him. always. =)

prayer meeting today was amazing.
just got back home from riverwalk.

thought that today would just go and pray.
recharge myself.
but He surprised me with what i could think of.
wasnt alot people there today.
but strong and great presence.

kelvin and weiren share alot word.
was really encouraged by them.
this mtg turned out to be a ministering session.
i was shocked. yes, CGLs discern.
but kelvin was right dot on the spot.
he even prayed for me that things i dont know and i dont see it myself.
rmb the post i blogged ytd? he discerned it.
wow. there's much more i wanna share.
but i think i shall stop here.
if you wanna know more, ask me personally or msn me.
lols. was really blessed.
not just myself, i believe
our seeds are being ministered as well. :D
let's go forth from here to the nations okay?

i just wanna make things clear to myself.
i want to be sure and be clear of what i'm doing.
being led by the spirit but not by my might.
i gotta be more open to receive. :)

i'm gonna say something lame.
Jasper wants me to blog this. lol
today after BS, we went to Sgoon Central Mac.
there was this group of aunties. and the 'leader' was 'preaching'
lol. then ard 15 aunties were looking at her as if her face got write 50% discount
hahas. ya.

then gave Joanna a birthday 'surprise'
it wasnt surprising to her anyway.
Desmond Kwan spoilt the mood. hahas
ya.

hais. kitmeng ar.
dua us lah.
ask me meet at 6.30am
in the end 7 am he still at home.
what sia.

okay. i'm turning emo now.
lol. can some one out there just encourage me?
i know it sounds wrong to get encouragement in this way. but ya. i need it.
well, mr ee really believe that 1 man can make a difference.
so, i'm trying to say that, he wants me to fight for it.
what lah.
so many times in this year i'm trying to give up.
but i cant. so many things that comes by doesnt allow me to.
with a person who really wants to give up.. and is needed to fight. huh?!
dont have will okay. dont say will. dont even have strenght.
what? stand up again? and being hit down again?
it doesnt matters that you dont like me.
but you're like winning the whole world over not to like me.
you're the head. and i'm not even the tail.
even the person with lower rank wins over me.
thanks alot huh.
he wants to me recall.
recall what? i dont rmb. really.
i'm not even sure abt myself. am i a leader or not.
the matter of trust. in who?
i dont trust the council. really.
how does it matters to me if it falls?
guess i just gotta be strong.
like Samson. well, maybe my enemies have cut off my hair alr.
just hope that miss tan will take me out of council.
i wanna show. but it's just too hard.
maybe someone with influence can encourage me? i dont know

in another sense of trust, i can really trust my leaders in church.
just feel that i'm in place of strong hands.
good leadership. great people.
i did twice trustfall so far.
it's so called game lah.
but i wasnt able to do it with council.
yet i was really willing to let go with brothers ard.
i know they are fighting strong. very.
i applaude them alot. to all the leaders.
the guide us and lead us. yet, they also gotta watch over themselves.
wow. they have work, mtgs and mtgs.
salute to them! :D i love my leaders. all of them. :)

i dont wanna fall into the 'trap' just wanna stand up again.
stop influencing me okay.
i have the power of choice and decision.

dint go enrollment service today.
and i totally forgot about it until kitmeng rise it up.

woke up early.. knowing that God will provide.
dint worry abt transport. coz i know dad sure will gimme a ride there.
:)
queued up.. felica told me something.. sad.. lol..
fel: wah, like so long nv see you queue liao.
lol. i queue alternate weeks.
coz i serve alternate weeks. yeah

4 boys came. :) so glad. Hans brought Shu Hui as well.
i love the Word. so much. i'm gonna do it like never before.
after svc celebrated Jo's bday. hahas. i just love her present. (i bought for her with others de)
meet Kelvin after that. wow great mtg.
i'll start doing even more.
like cant take a breath liddat.
i understand more as well.. opened up my eyes. :)

meet CG at Novena and went home :)
i'm really bless today.. i dint type out the details. but i'm truely blessed.
SO MUCH TO DO!

i am waiting for movie to load.
so decided to blog. lol

today was racial hamorny day celebration(sort of)
ya. had inter house dance competition.
lol. yeah. i danced with the other 4.
sheena lim dance like doing drill. lol
it was totally bad. but we still have the fashion show. which was a success.
:)
dint expect to get second. hahas.
we thought we're gonna be 4th or 5th. yea.

after sch went to library to do song sheet.
who knows there no printer. then went comp lab.
also no printer.
but Mr Tan very good.
:) he let me use the D&T de comp and print. hahas.
THANKS ALOT!

gb-ed. super lame.
wear full-u then change out again. -.-"
went Pertapis. ok lor.
went to meet CG. i reach there they all wanna go liao.
haha. went to sgoon central mac.
stayed there until 8 plus.
then send jia xiang and alex.
went to chill out at a cafe. :)

nth much lah. just trying to lame here.
okies. i'm gonna watch my moive
:)

wow. 'great'.
thanks to MS LEE HUI LING.
i'm not playing guitar for CG tmr.
good rite.
so what lah. arghs..

wah. i feel so bad lah.
cant play for Cindy.
but it's okay. KIT MENG IS PLAYING!
yes! he sounded so scared when i told him lah.
hahas.
jia you man.
dont be nervous.
there's always a first time.
FLOW okay. hahas.
jia you! jia you! jia you!

oh crap. haven done the flyers.
okay. gtg. need to do it. right now.
:) i love JESUS everyday!

argh! crapness.
what am i suspose to do tmr?!
tmr got CG. but same time got GB.
wah. then Ms Lee dont let me go.
HOW HOW HOW?!
i really wanna go CGM. but gotta go Pertapis Home.
how to tell Cindy?!
God, make a way out for me. please please.
i think she's quite mad at me for not going enrollment service.
wah.. HOW?!

crap lah today.
my class was like huh?! to me.
some one played with bomb bag.
and kanna me. cool rite!
super what can.
then Berton Tee. like i've owe you something liddat.
what was that for? hais.

okays. i'm falling in love with Chemistry.
so much. did the retest today.
got everything correct. *grins*

till the end of day. WHAT TO DO TMR?!

Yes!
after such a long long long break, finally back with BS.
it's with Pastor Zhuang again. Hallelujah. :)
i really learnt alot from him..
since Getting Started all the way to Authority For Living.
great man. :)
as we move on to different levels of BS, he expects more. ahhas.
the class today only consist of me, wendy, joanna, jasper, clara, wah ju and samuel(from Davin's CG)
lol.. it's like mostly our CG ppl.
Jasper, Wendy and i ran like mad ppl in city link.
thought we were late. but actually still got 10+mins.
but dont want to be late. lol

hahas. i'm playing for Fri make up CG. :)
abit stress also lah.
argh! i dont want to go enrollment service this Sunday.
super lame de lah.
i dont want to miss CHC service.
Pastor preaching different sermon leh. hais.
dont want go lah! so sian.

wah.. really need to study and study and study liao.
Pst just now say.. there's no short cut to success.
so must study! wah. very difficult leh.

tmr got two re-test. physics and chemistry.
like super what lor.
i failed both okays. sians.
so at the end of the day.. one word. "STUDY"!

ytd service was great.
woke up late for ministry.
8.30am then report.
Aaron gave that sian diao face.lol

served Delta.
hahas. was the runner for zone IC, Rachel.
first time serve as runner. ahhas.
learnt alot from Rachel. but wasnt doing alot.
coz there's another IC in training.

we went to changi airport to fetch Pastor Zhuang and the rest who came back from Taiwan Emerge.
wah. i also wanna go. SO MUCH.
but still gotta wait. got sch. hais.
mission.. wait for me!
ya. wah ju ar.. hais.
we hang out too much. can read each other mind.
lol. which is a super bad thing. hahas.

today had PM at Elijah's house.
dint want to go.
too lazy. but force myself to do so.
Yunting was leading.
ok lah. that's her first time.

um.. so many unspoken words.
and i dont know how to express.
as expected, it's here.
shall walk on first. then see how.
all attacking on different directions.
family, finances, studies, relationship.
hais. waiting for the light to appear.
GOD BLESS ME.
You put words into my mouth. and i shall trust in You.
argh! set me free..
Pastor Mike Connell coming in 2 weeks time. YES!
the first time i receive Christ is through him. hahas.

few days nv blog alr.
lol.
wed went to PS to celebrate John's Bday.
before that had drill.. went off early.
Jasper was at PS for the whole day.
met Eric's friends. lol his CG de.
then i appeared abit earlier to accompany him.
i so good.
but he's better can.. stayed there for 6 hours. until we come.

ya. meet the rest.. meant to be a surprise for John.. but many ppl wish him happy birthday liao
so no more surprise..
Jasmine dint go.. she got work.. sob sob.
Lao Da wasnt there.
went to cafe cartel. :)
saw Bee Leng.. hahas.
ya.. then sabo John go kneel down infornt of the PS door.
we all laughing at him.


then thursday.
went to bugis and meet wah ju.
go buy gifts. we hang out there like 2 hours to wait for uncle Ronald to arrive.
we crapped, we ate. many junk food.
all wah ju pay.
lol.. ya.. then we went bugis street.. see see look look.
all directions confused.. lol

ya.. then Ronald came. he went physio. waited again.
that time was 7pm.
then we go eat.. again. at bugis street.
ya.. then Wendy came and join us.
she eat super fast. with lotsa cheese on her pasta.

ya.. walked here and there.. looked for presents.
hahas. wahju brought us from bugis street all the way to Bencoolen.
to see her new sch. cool rite.
ya. then walked back again.
from the time Wendy met us, she's been facing down.
hahas. to her phone. all the way with her phone.
busy busy person.. lol

went to serangoon central to take bus back.
saw Aaron. my UM IC. hahas
wah.. then i reached home.
mum super worried.
she scared i got anything.
my HP was flat.. then she cant contact me.
hahas. she almost called the police lah..
ums.. next time cannot so late go home liao.. if not they worried.


ya. then today.
lame sia.
retest Chem. finally know what miss yang was talking all the way
but dont know will pass or not.
Mr Oei was like asking me and others to plan for what to do on Racial Harmony day.
was like what?! now gotta invovle in paramount.
ya. then GB.
ok lor. practice for mon GB day.
our drill super cool.
all the bangings tog de. hahas.
was surprise to see Jasper in school. somemore the took cab lah.
lol.
he took my picts lah.
from the posters and all.
oh no. if CG members sees that.. that's it man.

had farewell party.
quite ok leh.
took a handfull of photos. hahas.
i thought was really like party.. with people going crazy and all.
but nopes. hais.
lols. JinJer was like. HUH?! attention seeking.
ya. we ate canteen food. with cake from outside.
how cool rite.
ya.. until mdm chua talked abt it, i dint realised that today was FRIDAY 13.
known as black friday, lol
ya. got abit suay. stupid vanessa. take the mop then swing swing.
and hit me. got dirty all over lah.
arghs.
hanged out at 107 until 8pm + so lazy to go home.
sounds weird rite.

tmr having steamboat. hahas. afternoon steamboat. wow

woke up at 7am today.
super late.
took cab..

the most embarressing thing of the day.
was pulling the flag.. then got stuck.
wah.. i was like.. how? how?
the national athem was still on..
the flag hang there half way..
took down then redo.
wah. so paisei.

study only 3 hours.
then went to council room and blow balloons.
blow like dont know what.
especially the heart shape de. in the end also no use.
ya. today investiture.
finally.
ok lor. run here run there only.
feel so honored walking down the aile with the rest. hahas
abit blurr abt the proceedure. but was okay.
enjoyed the video.. i screamed alot. lol

then packed up council room. super in mess lah. wah..
counted ties, throw this and that.
i'm gonna change the room! lol.
provided money is not an issue.

PS: councillors. there's croackoach in the council room. so take a look out for it.
pls help me kill it if you can. lol.

sorry John, i'm really sorry.
i will repent and will take up responsibility.
must thanks wah ju for the scolding.

i dont know.. i'm just confused.
i feel that my dark valley is coming. real soon and near.
i dont know what is it. but i just felt it.

i know there's something i cannot touch. and i couldnt touch.
if it's once or twice, it may be coincidence. but this happen many times.
just really need lots of prayer. i know that God will not let me take what i cannot contain.

pastor continued on SOTM exceeding righteousness part 2.
this is definitely a spiritual x-ray machine for me.
i dont want to continue a life like this.
sometimes but rarely worshipping worship.
i dont want to be like the scribes and pharisees.
my word shall be my bond.

Cindy talked to us after svc.
once again. i've not loved enough.
not loved enough for CG, for my leaders, for my members, for my family.
and i do feel that i have not loved God enough.
stepping out is not easy. right now, i just feel that i wanna give up.
mainly i'm too lazy.
but i know if i give up now. my breakthru may never come.

we had our WYZ prayer meeting for sec schools today.
great to see the rest. missed the times we had in camp,
the sessions that we had, praise and worshipping tog.
i know.. something in the spirit wasnt breaking thru.
Kelvin told us, we must pour out. to let the HS fill in.
we did it.
focusing on Him, zoom in into Him.
it's just wonderful.
it's not enough of Him.
Kit Meng shared his testimony.
it's totally great.
praise God. it took him great courage to stand on the platform.
we're aiming 220 by august. :)
it's like a camp 'FIRE' that doesnt end.
SGS. wake up! it's time to emerge!
revive, revive, revive.

north cluster came tog.
Bee Leng is our IC. dint expect Pual to be kelvin and her cousin lah.
breaking news to me. ya.
we shall work towards our target. :)

waited for Hui Wen and Wei Bin for their helpers mtg.
waited so so long.
Eric walked here and there.
Kelvin also.
he said we must break into the spirit.
then after that Eric asked him see their song competition.
hahas. Kelvin talk half way.
yay. our zone have zone portal. hahas. really cool.

Euphoria went to airport. to camwhore. can you imagine that.
i camwhore with the rest. lol
did silly stuff. ended up ard 7+pm then leave airport.
Wei wei have all the energy in the world lah.
he was talking and talking non stop.
wanted to slp.. but cant.
still managed to catch some.
dad unhappy lah.
abt some stuff.
hais.

dont know leh.
i'm like full of emotions now.
i wanna lean back and fall.
fall into His arms.
i wanna trust. Him and people ard me.
yes, there's a need for me to rise and grow from glory to glory
and i wanted that too.
but isnt there something more than rising up?
my life and relationship with Him.
it's better for me to have a steady solid rock than i flimsy one.
i'm still learning from leaders. mainly from WYZ.
watching them, picking things up from them.
i really wonder what makes them today.

praise God. my dark valley is coming.
pray that He'll guide me through.

2am near to 3 in the morning.
Jasper missed call me..
i was like.. huh? my alarm went off alr?
just to realise it was midnight..
then asked Jasper to call back..
LOL. so funny. sub-conciously answered him.

went back to slp and woke up at 8.30am
was like -.-" was very early lah. but still need to go school.
it's my commitment to them.
ytd Mr Yap smsed me.. he praise me lah.. *shy*
anyway, he also asked me to praise the juniors as well..
so thought of something.
suspose to meet at 9am in school.
but 9am i was still at home..rushed to to get chocs for the juniors. lol
costed at bomb lah. but it's a blessing to bless others and to thank them as well.
took cab down. another $4 gone.
stayed there ard 1/2hr.. then rush off again.

was raining.. and was looking for cab for 1/2hr under the rain. can you imagine that?!
in the end gave up. walked to the chapel there and take bus.
reached Joanna's house ard 10.45am.
John was sick. oh dear. must really take care.
Elijah taught me to play Shine like stars.
until Jasmine, Cindy and Wah Ju came in respectively.
learnt alot from the practice. not just guitar skills. but learnt how to FLOW.

excited to play.. just that dint take worship. not up to standard yet. or say, Elijah was there. so he took worship.
slowly but surely. lol
many many many people came today. Joanna's room was packed.
though i made a little mistake in Praise. but was still okay.
after CG fellowshiped abit. thanks Jo's mom and maid for preparing the food.

went to Kovan de super bowl.
they played bowling. watched them.
slpt at the table.. then cold and uncomfy, went outside to staircase to slp.
lol. was down with flu coz of rain.

then we rushed down to svc. took Yong Wei's father's cab.
with Hans and Zi Hao.
reached there, they boys wanna buy drinks, food. lol.
was rushing them like dont know what.
saw many leaders. hahas. they were late. but coz they got CG lah
hais. saw someone. obvious that person is avoiding me.
feel so hurt lah. really.
went to svc and worship started. yups.
pastor cant feel presence.. me too.
guess we're all not so focus.
then pastor preached on exceeding righteousness part 1
um.. so much similar to what i've encounter at foyer 3.
or rather i'll say, he's talking abt me

ya. great sermon. going for part 2 tmr. :)
after svc went foyer 3 look for Jasmine.
she wasnt there yet.
then fellowshiped and waited for her.
yunting walked past me. she so surprise i play guitar. lol
so glad for her.. she's an OM today.
John is also an OM today as well. congrates ppl!
lol.. John is looking hard for his OM card. wahju took it.
ya.. then Alan says he wanna teach me guitar. wah.. hahas.
but dont know he say counted or not.
but he said something..
'it's not abt skills but you must flow. must have a heart of worship to bring down the presence of God.' wah.

praise God. after svc, i was healed by God of flu. yay.
then was super tired de. but gain some energy.
:) pastor said today got EOGM. argh.. i wanna go.. but i'm not EM yet. just an OM.
wondering when will i get to EM. umms.
Taiwan emerge is coming. yay! TAIWAN! TAIWAN! TAIWAN!
really pray that Pastor and his team will sustain their energy for 4 days.
i believe that it'll be better than last year. :) Taiwan will be saved.

very exhausted alr. went out whole day. plus haven recover from ytd's tiredness.
tmr queuing plus recuitment. wow.
exciting day. PTL!

wow. PTL. for that He's done.
today had a breakthrough.
i was the IC for external traffic.
reached ACS, was slacking at the hall, even slpt.
lol.
but afterwards realised that Jeston(chief IC) changed the people ard..
which makes things tough for me.
but still, there was Sarah's grp with me..
brief the councillors what to do and stuff and set of to our stations.

was abit unhappy with somethings lah. mainly with the signages.
but was still okay..
reflected on myself along the way..
was really sorry that i shouted at some one on the way coz of some problems.
really sorry abt that.. i feel really bad.
i know it's not his fault and he tried his best.
ya. apart from that, i was running up and down like a mad woman.
also, i have to thank Phyllis and Sabrina for standing in the lift. it was super hot.
of coz, Zul's people in carpark marshalling has done a great job.
Sarah's people that leads to the hall, Dharshini's hall ushers that guides,
the food people that serves. and of coz, my ushers that has done a uber job.
must thank Jeston for stressing so much, being accountable to all things.
and Mr Ho, super looked like bonkers just now, for running the whole show.

yups. gonna thank them tmr. super great.
i was so tired at the transmission time.
i looked like i was dying alr.
then also very emotional. lol.
so tired that my last strenght was to only open my eyes.
but i saw the wordings in the canteen. ' do all things for God.' wah.
tried to make myself look as sharp as possible.
at the finale, everyone went in..
was standing outside with mr yap.. hahas. he escaped from the limbo dance from all the teachers.
but indeed, he sacrificed and compromised with us alot.

cleared up hall, went for debrief by mr arman.
went on bus. and Jeston went.. KAILIN! where's the brollys?
OMG! i was like argh! stop the bus! emeline, sarah. leon and i ran all the way back to the hall..
and we're the only ones left..
the whole bus waited for us at the traffic light..

then another breakthrough.. Cindy smsed me to asked me play guitar for CG tmr. wow.
i dont know how to react, but it's really amazing.
super tired now.. gtg.
tmr's gonna be a long day.
PRAISE GOD!

lol..
it's really interesting..
okay.. here's the results of exco..
min yee- president
Jeston- VP of events
Shona- VP of Admin
me- VP of welfare
Peiting-HOD of welfare
Zul-HOD of events
Steff- HOD of Admin.

okays.. i'm not the president. lol
but it's also a good thing.
perhaps min yee can lead better than me.

was walking home alone just now..
many things came to my mind..
when i was sec 1, i was the only student leader in the whole cohot.
rmbed my first SL camp. wasnt really great for me..
but slowly getting to know more leaders.
end of sec 1 went to MT.K with SLs. great experience which open up a door way for me.

sec 2 was the 2nd VP of SL. i thought that was my breakthrough.
but later on SL and Prefects merge. caused many things to happen.
i step down to let the sec 4s be in exco..
and at that time.. was struggling so much over that tie.
recently, being the provisional VP of welfare, wasnt really respecting my position.
and now, being the VP of welfare, i felt that there wasnt really any excitement or what so ever.
people may all go higher than i am.. but really, exprience doesnt mean anything.
to find a leader that is able to lead is not easy. not mentioning abt a leader that is able to lead WELL.

maybe the max is can go is that area.
but really, i've learnt alot by being the 2nd VP in SL.. learnt alot from seniors, especially from MR EE.
is it really impt to me to have a high post?
i believe many people that read this post will be thinking that i dont even have the ability to lead.
what for i wanna be the president?
to me, being a student leader is not just all abt discipline, attire, planning events, planning duties, being the most guai one.
but it's all abt changing the environment, being able to communicate well, impacting the people ard, being the most outstanding and extraodinary one.
not many can do that.
many are choosen, but only a few are called.
there's a greater plan bah. He let me fall, not allowing me to fulfil my own dreams and desires.
it's all in the mind of His, not mine. bigger breakthrough, loving Him, serving Him.
yes, serving Him is all i'll do.
i'll not do what i can do, or what i want to do, but do what He wants me to do.
a lauching pad that will lead me to higher place.

super tired today.
lol.. miss tan talked to me when i was semi-concious.
caught some things lah.

anyway, lessons are as boring as usual.
today assembly talk was abt slp.
yay.. now i understand why i keep slping in the day time. lol
coz night environment very noisy.. too many cars. then still got street lights.
lol.

super sian lah.. everything so packed up.
banner, he dont want. certs and letters he dont want.
ACS deployment he dont want.
what he wants lah.
can somebody just go read his mind?
anyway, after many attempts, working on banner alr.
Jeston got real stress. do the deployment again and again.
opps. i haven give him the skeleton yet.

then still got hist project..
after that got drill. sians.
but it's really great to see a huge contiengent.
GB nv done it before.
though may slows down the actions and stuff.. but last year, our max rows are only 6
now is ard 10+. lol

then went off earlier.
went to meet the boys.
they where in BB/GB room.
lol.. Jasper totally look like their dad.
anyway, he wore the new shoe today.
very striking.
very prominent.
very nice on him. lol
ya.. then went for dinner with them

very disapointed with some people. hais.
all they wanna do is to stay comfortably and slack.
who dont wanna do that? but that's not gonna bring you success.

something great in the spirit today.
went to sch abit earlier than usual.
and to realise that CINDY LIM is the GG csm.
argh?! now gotta treat ms tan liao.

lol. after school wanted to do history de.
who knows. min yee wanna me go buy photo frame.
like huh.
went all the way to Ngee Ann, and i'm a idiot in walking ard Orchard area.
walk here walk there, by myself lah.
then found art friend. super expensive and not of the size i wanted.
sians.
then went back home.

met Wah Ju and Alex for dinner. lol
everytime see Wah Ju sure got things to say de..
then i purposely skipped 2 buses..
lol. just to talk to her.

now got alot things haven do..
3 more days to ACS concert liao.
sians. still got signages haven do,
the skeleton map yet to hand up.
wah. external traffic very shiong.
then thurs must hand up history PPT.
Kulags. what's thats? can some kind soul tell me how to do?
still got CME de religion project.
like WOW. so many things to do.

actually wanna stay at home do homework before mtg the guys.
who knows, dad wanna me go update my passport.
lol.. sent mom to work then realised i dint bring pic and passport.
then went back home and go to IAC building again.
saw Samuel there..
anyway, the queue was super long.
then dad cant wait. so we went back.

he sent me to J8 to meet the guys.
watched Die Hard 4.0
quite nice.. exciting also.
then went to shop ard.
yong wei chose a tie for John's bday.
cost $10.
then we went to 77th street coz Hans want to buy ring.
then shopped ard and settled down in Mos Burger.
chat abit. and went back.

homework not yet done~
gotta do now. if not tmr die.

btw, this is just for some people.
if you're not happy with my blog, just leave.
singapore is a free country to express my thoughts.
and think abt it, if some one were to critize you and your blog. how wld you feel?
so please make it a point to respect others and yourself.
you're totally making yourself look stupid and ignorant.
i may have offened you or something, so i say sorry to you now.
please just leave if you're not happy.
thanks

only slept for 3 hours.
was abit late for report duty today.
but briefing haven start yet.

was taking the same zone. always.
BA02. hahas. was taking attendance, with a help of a brother.
was quite good today..
thought many empty seats, but managed to fill up.
thanks alot.. brothers and sisters!
before doors open, Wendy come to me and talk talk.
lol.
she was IC for Alpha.

two people said to me same words. : ZHAI.(if you know)
ming ching and wendy.
lol.. i'm proud of myself.

pastor kong not ard today.
went to CHC KL. Dr.Peter Wagner came.
he taught us on the 7-m mandates.
LOL. he really TEACH.
many people dont understand. i only start to catch him on the 2nd point.
was sitting same row as Jasper, but many many seats away.
he agrees to Dr. very loudly.
coz some ppl sleeping.. wanna wake them up. super lol

after service suspose to help out in shifting hall.
but CG many friends. cant move. then i think aaron abit not happy.
anyway.. ronald cg joined us.
:) almost all of us wore formal. i love Pual's dressing!
then ronald, jasper, kitmeng, john, terence, they all wear strip de top lah.
same same de.

went out to fellowship, without knowing where to go. lol.
on train we like bunch of bonkers. Papa Jasper looking after kids until headache.
then Jo laughed at me when i first came church, in the end started laughing at each other..
from me to Jo to Wah Ju to Ronald to Jasper. lol!
then ended up in Orchard. left foot. for Jasper's shoe. after long long long consideration, he decided to buy the lepard de. $111 lah.
the five of us, Ronald, Jasper, Wah Ju, Eileen and me.. went shopping.
lol. bought eileen new shoes. that's all.
wah.. i super paisei lah. for some reasons. thanks ar Jasper.

rushed from Orchard to Jurong West Church.
shared many things with Wah Ju. lol
missed the past in the train going to JW church. lol
then missed 242. coz some people dont wanna move in the bus.
then took 179. Jasper met Chai Ying.. he boosted his new shoe.
sad lah.. ronald need to go back camp.. cant go PM with us.
Pastor Yock Kiang lead PM. awesome.
though many of us very tired, but hanged on.
prayed for the event that was carrying on just now.
great to see God move! hahas.
the longest PM i've attended, ard 4 hrs.
almost all of us ended up like Zi Hao. lol.
went for dinner. and cabbed home with the rest.
wah. i only contribute $1 for the whole trip. whereas the trip is near to $20.

homework haven finished. tmr going out with Hans and Yong Wei for movie..
so sleepy now..
LOL

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Kai Lin
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21/12/92
City Harvest Church
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Temasek Polytechnic
Psychology and Early Childhood Studies!

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