My weekdays and weekends are soo different!

the weekdays were traumatizing for me. totally.
rushing assginments till the wee hours of 4 or 5am everyday.
earliest i could sleep was 2am.
-.-
the assignments are coming in NON STOP like a river of flowing waters.
sometime i really wonder, WHY DID I TAKE THIS COURSE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
some other courses are so slack. though term test coming, they dont have to chiong like the PSY students have to.
oh well, face the fact.

but the weekend was a little better, haha, placing the assignments aside for just that little while.
went BUGIS for steamboat with my ex-colleagues. =)
of coz, our topic will always revolve around childcare, and just that little more. hahah.
but it was enjoyable overall.

just loved to go back home in hougang. can slack and chill like nobody's business.
plus, there's aircon. hehhee.
went Hiking at SOUTHEST RIDGES with ELF on sat.
it was totally awesome, fun and was a time of bonding. =)
and of coz, was tanned.
will uplaod photos when the rest send them to me. hehehe

i always feel that weekends shld be refreshing for one to carry on with the following week. hahhaa
and service with Pst Mike Connell was incredible. though was tired after the hike,
still went for service.
everytime i see him, reminds me of my first. (opps. dont wanna get naggy here)

so yup, the week just passes like that.
next week is full of deadlines, and the following is full of tests.
afterwhich is Youth Camp, and gotta chiong project already.
feeling so isolated from the friends outside of poly, and my BEST FRIEND right now are assignments.
i sleep with them, i talk with them, i bring them along with me.
CRAP! am i getting some mental disorder?!

i love you assignments. <3

Hehehe.
my uncle just walked into the kitchen.. and i said a passing comment: "i want die liao"
and he said: 'aiyo, xiao mei mei, you so fast gone after 2 rounds? be like a cockroach that cant be beaten." LOL

assignments are weighing me down! T.T
i need more time and energy and the brain to think. hah.
i've been on the online psych quiz for more than 1 hr alr, i believe.
it's only 20 qns.. but it's squeezing my brain juices out!

well, after play must do work already. gotta face the cold hard fact anyway.
and YES! play! hahaha. kayaking again today!
my skin colour is now obviously spilt into 2 colours.
was FUN today as well. i kept laughing thru out the rescue drill. hah.
and my weight was another factor. way way too light.
everyone was required to capsize, and i was being rescued rather than rescueing ppl.
Mas said that if i were the first few to get into the kayak first, i got no strenght to rescue others. hahha.

i loved the waves as well, just need more stamina to kayak thru!
but then again, it was the last session. my stern rudder was just too weak la.
rayyan says i dont dare to do it. hahaha. which he calls it "im a defensive person"
wow.
i've totally no idea, but i guess this is something new i've learn about myself today.
i'm bold and daring enough to do adventurous stuff, physically. (most of the times)
but comes to another aspect, i shld call the mental and character, im not as daring and bold, dont dare to let go/free to do it. (am i too old fashion or what?!)
oh gosh. i suppose this is something i dont like as well.
old saying goes, "practice makes perfect"
so i guess i need to be more agressive? or rather, open up? hahahha.

alright. REALITY CHECK.
assignments. *CRIES*!
(lecturers are really psychopaths)
oppps. =)

i'm happy. i really am. =)

it's almost a month of poly life already.
i feel that things are changing in the INSIDE for me.
it's like.. hanging out with a whole new different group of ppl brings you different perceptive and feelings.
some can bring the best out of you.
some can give you the worst you wanna be.
some give you 'high-ness' and insanity.
and some simply just make you switch off totally. (oops)

maybe 1 of the characteristic i can identify that seems to be changing in my right now is CONFIDENCE. hahaha.
sounds cliche la. but it's true for me.
Public speaking pushes me to be more confident.
and what happened in ELF selection was that i was pushed to be more confident in leading, in myself. in the things that i do.
ONE THING I gotta do, is to be more CONFIDENT in making friends, making connection. (learning from Rachel Tay). hahaha.
indeed, Iron sharpens Iron. but in this case, i'm trying to learn things from others that i dont have. and maybe they get it from me too.
i believe there's still something more. JUST THAT MORE.
daddy said last week, 'so poly seems like a turning point for you'.
hahaha, i guess he's right. but this turning point is towards the right way or wrong way, it all depends on me.

anyway, Foundation Psychology as a subject is definitely helping me. hehehe
it's the BEST subject compared to all those that i'm having now.
it's really interesting.. and answers my qns to real life.
how to tackle of those problems. =)
BUT, one thing not good abt Fpsych.. LOTS OF WORK AND RESEARCH AND READING.
oh well, it's one of my interest, SO, make do with it.
CRAP. still got sensation and perception havent STUDY. assignment due on wed. -.-

i still think that i'm blessed. i'm really AM.
little things and actions made me feel loved by friends.
and obviously not forgetting my AUNT.
she's totally NICE. =)
keep telling me 'bu yao ke qi'.
hahaha. it's much more noisier at her place compared to home back at hougang. =)

AND AND! i was trying to 'FAN' reuben that i dint get into ELF on thurs during AC.
but i walked past the ELF notice board and saw my name there!
RIGHT THERE! PRINTED AND BIG. wow.
how can i miss the interview that day?! no wonder the ELF ppl looking at me, shld be wondering why am i not there.
told Johnathan abt it.. haha. he also dont know got interview.
and he smsed something that i nearly laughed: "the powerful duo" -.-
hahaha. funny sia!
As much as i would like, I also wanna enjoy Adventure Club. hehehe.
i was telling Ivy on msn.. poly too much assignment and projects liao, need to do something that i like to distress myself. hehehe.
and AC is going to Pulau Ubin next sat to cycle! =) (reuben cant cycle) hahahah.

so, apart from the assignments and journal logs and projects and researching,
i guess i'm enjoying poly life totally! =)
and yea, INSPIRE - FAITH CAMP is coming soon. woots!
am really excited abt that.
from the FIRST INSPIRE to NOW. that's a huge difference of me!
INSPIRE CAN REALLY CHANGE UR LIFE! =) SIGN UP NOW!
(oh, this is so public speaking) heh

the best thing just happened to me today. hahaha
was swallowing down my food to rush for Adventure Club.
it's all vege and some no bone mutton.
and apparently, i choked on the vege. (Long Beans)
it's like a fish bone in ur throat. hahhaa

anyway, really thank Reuben, Rachel and Elinor for your concerns!
Rachel like so panicky.. and went to ask the store uncle for some rice(to swallow everything down in bulk.)
The AUNTIE AND UNCLE SO NICE.
auntie came forward and concern. hahhaa. she gave me a BANANNA too! hehe
uncle gave me some vege(again).

i felt so loved la! =D
TP is really a big family. hehehe.

woohoo.
LONG LONG TIME DINT BLOG ALR.
seems like it just died.
this will be a SUPER RANDOM POST

but anyway,
there's LOTS of things happening ard me.. not going to post them all, but maybe just some. hahaha.

FINALLY, WENT FOR 1 STAR KAYAKING. wooots.
asked many many many ppl.. they all dont wanna go. =(
but still, i enjoyed myself. and learnt ALOT. hahahhaa
realised that my stamina is SUPER DUPER LOUSY! =(
Rayyan told the other 5 ppl: "NOBODY IS SUPPOSE TO GO IN FRONT OF KAILIN!"
(he was trying to do his job la.) hahahaha
I NEED MORE STRENGTH TO EMBARK into kayak inside water! gotta train ARMS already!
had a great time overall. =D except for the sea water in my nose, carrying the kayak (bruises on my HIPS & scratches on both middle fingers) and sandals keep falling off! hehehe
cant wait for next sunday. BUT I ALSO DONT WANT IT TO END. =)

okay, let's back track just abit to friday.
HAHAHAHA. it was just a total JOKE to me.
was looking forward to go for ELF (experiential learning facilitator) which is a CCA.
and.. it ended up to be a 'BOOT CAMP', as suggested by REUBEN. hahah
but thankfully, he was there to support me after the 2.4km nonstop run.. ran tog to the pond.. and into the waters.
BUT hunger still gave in to him.. and he gave up. =(
it was like mentally and physically challenging.. the instructors like SIAO one.
but that was to test us la. (it's so tough to get into ELF)
after Reuben left, good thing i've made new friends. hahaha. like EDWIN, JASMINE, JOHNATHAN, JEZ(spy from ELF), that kept me going.
completed everything in the period of 5 hours nonstop.
SO PROUD OF MYSELF. =D

another event one of the major ones was the HUMAN WHEEL BARROW CHALLENGE.
HSS is small, so everybody was made complusory to go.
Kah Yong wheeled me. hahaha. i almost CMI till the end of 50m. my back ache for a few days after that.
all we get is a pack of goodie bag and a cert of participation of breaking the RECORD.
-.-

so ya.. enough of the events. hahaha
sometimes i just suddenly think of the kids back in TCC. AM MISSING THEM A LOT!
how i wish i can carry Isaiah..Shamus..JunJie again. miss the intelligent brothers, Enson and Elson. =)
hahaha. well, that's random.. but they do really bring loads of JOY to me.
seeing them can take everything away and just play with them. hehehe.
there's still a kid inside of me. =)

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Kai Lin
17
21/12/92
City Harvest Church
WR Zone
N346
Temasek Polytechnic
Psychology and Early Childhood Studies!

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